Well I'm bored....

So i'm super bored so I think I do some random rambling!!! YAY RANDOMNESS!!!

First off I'm not really excited this next week. Im working doubles every day, which is normal and i love my job but never fun.

Second I have MAJOR artist block just nothing is coming out, and its making me super angry!!!

Third I super stressed about getting my application perfect and sent in but I am way nervous, the kneader scholarship would be a major blessing in my life. Like Blessing above all blessings!!

Fourth I really hate not having enough time to just sit and read. Curse not having an english and math class to read in

Fifth I'm super excited for summer it was so nice the last to days and now its probably going to snow again. STUPID UTAH!!! make up your MIND ALREADY!!!

Sixth I love my new tomb raider game But i'm majorly stuck and boycotting it till I have more time to waste on. probably next sunday :D

Seventh My birthday is like 3 weeks and I'm not even excited for it....i just hope a work so I don't have to sit alone all night!

Eight I really don't why I've numbered all these and not used actual numbers...............oh well did you know the lakers have a guy on their team who has the chicken pox right now and 3 others haven't had the chicken pox. so the guy is pretty much lock in a box right now. worst timely ever dude... omg i just wrote about basketball....oh my

Ninth I have sat through so much sports and sports highlights this weekend I found myself watching them at home alone!! AHHH oh man i've done all this cause of a boy. A boy I can't even like cause i work with him and i've positive i'm not his type. But was super nice to relax with someone that just liked to sit there. But this guy is so different than the other guys I've dated. I've never liked the jock type. Maybe I like muscle but not to a point where it's ridiculous, i like them to be strong but not jacked, if you know what I mean. Anyways back to the guy he's totally the jock type. He's at that perfect point btw, I was at his house and I got way sleepy but it was time to leave. So as I got up I clung onto his arm to steady myself, omg all i got think about was how strong his arm muscle was and how good he smelled.....Oh no no no i can't like him. Any time I talk to him he's either been, at, going to the gym or watching sports (occasionally homework :P) Which his deal and respect that, but i'm not that way, I haven't been in a gym in like 2 years. Id  rather read or write or explore or just sit in a tree and stare out over the world. It's strange tho even he's mainly the jock type, he doesn't talk like it. He has a bull attitude with me and excepts me to do the same for him. Which freaked me out cause ever since 'him' i haven't really opened up to anyone. I know how to beat around the bush and how to smoothly answer but not really answer....know what I mean. But as I just chilled him watching sports highlights (i was really playing bubble popper) i found my self relaxed and comfortable with him, like I could do that everyday. BUT IT'S never going to Happen! we've hung out like 3 times and already our work thinks were dating, which reminds me i need to have a 'chat' with the person that made it sound like our bowling adventure was a date. Sigh idk and i don't really care, everything will pan out and everybody will see thats not how we are. I just like having a good friend, somebody to talk straight with and will talk back, sorry amber love ya but dogs aren't great at giving advice haha.

Tenth Oh my gosh I just wrote that huge rant about him, still not my type...

Eleventh DO i have a type??

Twelfth Whatever not going to happen

Thirteen I cleaned Dexter!!! yay he's all clean now, and ready for summer!!!

Fourteen I have a new obbession with listening these lectures on this website TED. Oh there so amazing!!!

Fifteen I hate writing essays!!

Sixteen i want to watch serect window now....me and the boy stated above were talking about it the other day and now I want to watch it.

Seventh I'm hungry

Eighteen Who ever is reading this your kinda wasting your time, cause thats what I'm doing

Nineteen watch kirby dance(-.-) (-.-)> ('.')>...<('.')> <('.'<) (>'.')> <(0.0)>...<(^.^)> <(^.^<) (>^.^)><(^.^<) (>^.^)><(^.^<) (>^.^)><(^.^<) (>^.^)><(^.^<) (>^.^)><(^.^)>........('.').....(-.-)* bored again.....

Twenty oh yeah I have food down stairs *goes and gets said food*

Twenty one now I want a grape soda.......weird

Twenty two I kinda wish I had more a life then this.....

Twenty three I realized I've been at this for like a hour now, man thats sad

Twenty four I wonder if he's done with his homework yet...

Twenty Five I really need to get my mind off this weird crush, I don't have time to like anybody

Twenty six Does anybody actually read this kind of stuff on other people blogs

Twenty seven Did anybody even read this

Twenty eight ah the great mysteries of lie

Twenty nine mysteries what a great word, it's up there right under euphoria :)

Thirty I done I going to go read a book or sleep or something.

Thank you for tuning into Jay birds Pointless ranting