The past is the worst thing about living
you can't do anything about it
you can't change it
all you can do is be haunted by it visions
and the memories will never go away

the memories is the worst thing about the past
You can't sit in the spot you used to read
because you can hear his voice reading to you aloud
YOu can't sleep on your old side of the bed
because you can remember him singing you to sleep
You can't make shapes in the celining
because your never ending contest fills your head
Never again can you sing your favorite song
because it was The song
You can't bare to even look at your favorite dress
for the way he's eyes sparkled fills you thoughts
You must never look down at your left hand
because it lays bare of the ring you had to throw away

Leave

Leave
Tried very hard to please you,
Tried so hard to make you smile,
But why could you never trust me
Why did you leave??
When we were just beginning
You held me so close,
and yet so far,
The attraction was pure and true,
So why could you walk away so easy
And now I'm breakin down,
Now I'm trying to forget,
Burning away our pictures and memories,
How could you leave?
You said you Loved me
I'm still fight back these stupid tears
To this very day
You walk right past me,
Do you even see me?
The girl said you needed
And now I'm breakin down,
Now I'm trying to forget,
Burning away our pictures and memories,
How could you leave?
You said you Loved me
I loved you,
you said the same thing back to me,
So how could you leave?

Haha it's rather sad but I found it in one of my folders, and I liked it the emotion. No I'm not an emo anymore but I wrote so pretty good stuff during that time :P well read it when your feeling this way and know you can connect with someone and life does get better, trust me I've been there and now I'm higher than the misery swamp i once called home. The stars are so beautiful above the fog :)

Remember: in honor of 911

Freedom is never more than one generation away from extinction. We didn't pass it to our children in the bloodstream. It must be fought for, protected, and handed on for them to do the same, or one day we will spend our sunset years telling our children and our children's children what it was once like in the United States where men were free." ~Ronald Reagan~
Please everybody take a moment tonight and tomorrow and remember the people who died on this dark day. Please Remember the brave soldiers that have died overseas because of this war that insued after this day. Please Remember that because of these soldier we sleep calmly tonight while thier families go to bed with the knowledge they'll be always one empty chair at the dinner table.
Freedom is not free, it is bought by Courage, Faith, Blood, Tears and most of all Hope. Please Always Remember that this is our land, Our Home! We Must stand together as one Country, One People, and One Hope for a better tomorrow!!
Bless the families with empty chairs and think of the unsung heros that gave up thier lives protect the country they fought for and loved. Bless the childern that will never know a parent. Bless the spouses that sleep alone tonight in bed much to big for one. Bless the parents who had to bury a child because thier is Nothing in this world is more heartbreaking than a mother's tears. Please don't let these lives be wasted! Please Remember not to forget.

reach for it :)

Wonderful moments, memories and friend are some thing you have to reach for :)

Have Fun reaching for the stars <3

And Don't be afraid to spread you wings and fly!!

Another start

Looking back into the past,
Now it doesn’t hurt to remember at last,
Searching through old memories,
Rubbing away such as a abrasive of emery,
Opening the wounds of anew,
So I can share them with myself and even you,

The way I now smiled was unlike before,
A shining in his eyes that I adored,
The sun was brighter,
My steps were lighter,
Laughing came as easy as breathing,
It felt like Power inside could help you do anything,
People were happy all around,
The world played a beautiful sound,

But every song must end,
And every sun must descend,
The sound of when you heart breaks,
Is never one you can never mistake?
The words etched on that page,
Felt like being locked in a cage,
Frightful, regretful, mournful, and sorrowful,
How could a simple tear be so powerful?
How could the one you loved so much,
Hurt you so badly with just withdrawing from you touch?

The perfect moment doesn’t live on forever.
Can anything last? No not ever,
It’s alright never to forget your first love,
The feeling you feel is even hard to speak of,
It’s was first time you felt whole,
Entwined with another soul,
A place you belonged,
Unfortunately that place has died and is gone,

First loves come and go,
At least that’s what I know,
I know the impression of that first love,
Well stay with even when you return to above,
But the other thing I know,
After your heart heals it starts to grow,
When your first love is gone,
Finding another person to love is not wrong, I know

Happiness is around the corner,
Take a chance and open you heart to foreigner,
A person ready to love you is out there,
First loves are precious and rare,
But finding someone that will always care and love you,
Is kind of love that will grow strong and true.

Another one of my favorite poems i've written

gambit sketch

The start of my epic picture of Gambit my favorite comic character :D oh I adore him!!!

Sweet Dreams

So many times I've laid awake,
going over my countless mistakes,
wondering why I couldn't be better,
reminding myself with his goodbye letter,
But the day I decide to start again,
was the day my sorrow started to end,
seeing others and new faces,
With friends emptiness got replaced,
Then I ran into him,
I fell stupidly just on a pure whim,
I never thought he would care about me,
Over time I started to see,
That he cared for me too,
The connection became true,
So tonight I'll sleep without tears and screams,
Because you said 'good night and sweet dreams'

written a very time ago and i just was rereading it. I just wanted to post it